In a live Facebook chat, Kate Upton talked with Aly Raisman, Hailey Clauson and Sailor Brinkley Cook about modeling for the Sports Illustrated 2017 Swimsuit Issue. The women discussed the pressure they feel to be perfect, and how they’ve learned to love themselves in a world where they face so much criticism.

When Upton appeared on the cover of her first Swimsuit Issue, she says there was lots of public discussion about whether she was fat or not. “For me as a 19 year old, I was like, ‘What? Am I fat? What’s going on?’ I had this huge moment in my career and they were tearing it apart. Actually, I have to thank the people who did that, because it really made me sit back and find out who I was and what meant something to me and how I thought about my body.”

She says she ultimately realized, “All of that discussion on whether I was fat or not came from pain, from real pain out of women. They lashed out at me, because they felt insecure about themselves… Now I realize that my confidence that I have in my body was meant to inspire women to love themselves for all of their different flaws.”

What flaws does Upton see in herself? “I’m filter-less, I’m inappropriate, I have really big breasts…” Um… Kate? Those so-called flaws are a few of the things your fans like best about you. Watch the full conversation here, and check out a few of Upton’s recent Instagrams below:

Pregaming for @diplo @si_swimsuit with @repostapp ・・・ Rock it, @kateupton!

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Are nude panties back? #snapchat #wine #robe @tracymurphymua @sweetbabyjamie @jrugg8 @cwilliams728

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Getting some love from @todaypuppy, Charlie! #SISwim17 #puppylove

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