Selena Gomez appears on the April cover of Vogue next to the all-caps headline, “Selena gets real,” and it’s no exaggeration.

Gomez looks both stylish and smokin’ hot in a spectacular set of photos taken by Mert Alas and Marcus Piggott for the issue, and in her interview with Rob Haskell, she talks about the mental health struggles that have accompanied her overwhelming success.

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Last summer, the popstar ended her Revival tour early to spend three months in a rehab facility in Tennessee. She explained it this way, “Tours are a really lonely place for me. My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it—which, I think, was a complete distortion.”

Gomez is the most-followed person on Instagram, but while she was in therapy, she didn’t post for three months. She says she doesn’t even have the app on her phone anymore, because “I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram.” Now, her assistant does the posting for her.

While other young celebrities clamor (and post revealing selfies) for public attention, Gomez admitted to Vogue that she’s looking forward to the day when she can leave the spotlight behind. “I just really can’t wait for people to forget about me.”

As long as her assistant keeps posting images like these on social media, that day may never come.

Wearing @coach for @voguemagazine !!

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