If you only know one thing about the Souls games, it’s that they aren’t easy. So when I started playing Dark Souls 3 a few weeks ago, I asked myself: what would the most people want to see?

The answer I came up with: every single one of my failures all in a row.

The video above shows every single time I died while playing Dark Souls 3, from my optimistic beginnings challenging a giant crystal lizard in an ashen cemetery to my 19 excruciating defeats at the hands of the game’s final boss.

Needless to say, spoilers therein.

Mike Rougeau is Playboy.com’s Gaming Editor, in charge of all things video games. He really is very good at Dark Souls. Follow him on Twitter @RogueCheddar.